Currently Listening To: John Legend--something that was constantly playing through my stereo in High School.
Currently Drinking: A Grande Extra Hot Vanilla Latte. My life blood. Drank it in High School, drink it in college.
Current Emotion: Nostalgia. Slash nervousness. Slash excitement.
I drove my siblings to school (Wildwood) this morning...it was really strange, not getting out of the car, hoisting a massive backpack onto my back and trudging up to those double doors for another long day. No walking in to a partly empty building, watching everyone come in half asleep. No first period study hall or half sleeping through the first class. Instead, I just dropped them off and drove away. Weird, man. I'm currently camped out at Starbucks, since there's really nothing to do at home, seeing as the adopted family members are still homeschooling this week, at least for today and tomorrow. It's been nice, just reading my fluff literature my mom picked up for me and people watching. I've been used to the MU Starbucks for the past few months, so it's weird coming in here and experiencing an entirely different demographic--adults, for the most part. :) I have so many great memories at this Starbucks...and the Coldstone that's right across from it...ahhh, this is where I spent most of my high school years, at least the ones where I could drive. I'm actually getting ready to go visit WCS at lunch (since apparently any other time we, and by we I mean alumni, are a distraction. Go figure, we go from being students to distractions...whether this is an upgrade or a downgrade is yet to be determined. I'm a bit nervous--this is the first time I will have set foot in that building since Baccalaureate. I have SO many memories in that building...and after Graduation, I just kind of left them all there. So yes, they're waiting for me...lurking...haunting...just kidding. Most of them are pleasant. Yes, there are some rather painful ones, but who doesn't have painful memories from High School? I think the thing that I'm grappling with is the change factor--yes, there are mostly people there who've been there in past years, but there are also new students. New teachers. New memories being made. It isn't really "my" school anymore--Mizzou has filled that position. It's "my High School". Saying that makes me feel so old. And yet, at Mizzou I feel so young. It's a strange position to be in, that of a college freshman. I can't wait to see all those girls who were like my little sisters during my senior year, and yeah, I suppose I missed some guys too. I miss the feeling of being a "big sister" at school...both to my biological and spiritual families. The school is going to be going through some pretty major changes in the very near future, and so this school year may be the only time I can go visit it and have it still be mostly the same. I am an individual who is VERY resistant to change, of any kind. It takes me a very long time to get used to new things, new situations, new people. I'm at a very "in-between" point of my life right now, and so nothing really is settled. But I'm content...I think. :)
So, I'm going to take those last sips of my latte, finish my book, get in my car, and drive down that route that I could drive with my eyes closed, and go to Wildwood. And it's going to be great.